stop fighting monsters like that

When you put overthinking + pessimism + ego + logical together, you get someone who is their toughest critic, who always convince themselves that there are reasons why some things will never work in their favour, including their own happiness.

Or you get a super pro strategist paralysed by fear of loss and failure.

Or, just a handicap suffering from constant mental tug-of-war, where logic and emotions clash and a gnawing discomfort just keep eating herself.

Or just a fiercely independent person who has been so used to and good at handling her volatile emotions.

But doesn't mean it's easy.